God's Temple

O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.
19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God! Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent; your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them; I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

My Body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, God created me and I am fearfully and wonderfully made. These are promises that the enemy for the last four years has been stealing from me. In my 4 years at college i gained over 50 pounds. Slightly more than the freshman 15.......I hated the way that i looked. I would avoid social activities because of the way that i looked. I hated my body and i did not see any beauty in it. Like any other college gal i tried my share of quick fix diets. And like many college gals fell flat on my face. I would tell myself that it was not about what is on the outside but whats on the inside is what really counts. When i was hungry i would eat, when i was bored i would eat, when i was angry i would eat, when i was sad i would eat, when i was lonely i would eat, when i was depressed i would eat, when i was happy i would eat, when i was confused i would eat, when i was with friends i would eat, when i was alone i would eat, when i was excited i would eat....................................The list goes on. I used food to fill every empty place in my heart. I loved God and i knew he loved me. I knew i was responsible for taking care of the body that he had created in his image but i was falling deeper and deeper into the bottomless pit. I was beleiving the lies the enemy was telling me. I had no control, i would always be "big", God did not care about the outside, My self worth was attached to a number on the scale, it is shallow to care about the outside...............................The list goes on.

I have begun the journey to uncover the me that God created. Every morning i read and claim the truths and promises that God has given me. My body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, i am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am made in the image of God, I am beautiful. I renounce the lies that the enemy has been feeding me and i take back that which he has stolen fron me. I will never again turn down a social activity because I hate the way i look, I will see myself the way that he sees me, I will take care of the body that he created.........................The list goes on.

These changes will not happen overnight but i beleive that his garace is sufficient and that he has given me all the tools that i need. I have asked asked a couple of my friends that i an in an acountability group with to keep me accountable to exercising 3-4 times a week and eating healthy/sticking to my meal plan. I also joined Weight Watchers for some added accountability.
Thank you Lord that you never give up on your children that you knit each and every one of us in our mothers wombs and that we are all made in your image. You are so Amazing.